Trying to Recall

At the suggestion of Alex's comment on my last entry, I've decided to try and recall my memories and what I may have written in my old blog. She mentioned the name Kellie, and I've been forcing myself to remember anything about any girl with that name, either Kellie, Kelly, or Kelley. However, I haven't been able to recall a single thing. Yet, the dream I was having about the girl who I was proposing to has been playing out more often. Other dreams have been featuring this girl as well. Could this girl be Kellie?

I feel like I'm starting to get closer to learning something, but whenever I feel like I might be near a breakthrough, something forcibly stops me from remembering. For example, in one of the dreams with this girl, we are sitting on a bed, having a conversation. I can't hear anything that's being said, but slowly the sound picks up. She is about to mention something to me, but something weird happens. I'm suddenly outside in a forest, staring at a tree with multiple eyes (similar to the tree in my one video, but with a lot more eyes). I think this tree may have something to do with everything, but I have no idea what exactly this tree has to do with my life. Getting a little nervous, but it really seems that my memories may contain something important that somebody or something doesn't want me to recall.

Made My Decision

Saturday in Atlantic City was not fruitful. Granted, I only lost 100 bucks, but it would've been nice to win big. So, after careful consideration, I've made my decision.

For those of you who are following this blog, for those of you reading it only through watching my youtube channel, and even those who read and don't follow it, I need all of your help.

Slowly (not all at once), I would like you to help me recover my memory, sort of. As stated, I can't see the entries from my old blog, just as I cannot see my old videos from youtube. I would like you to start helping me remember by telling me what it was I wrote about/filmed. I'm not sure what I'm looking for in them, but I have a feeling there's something important that I need to know.

Please help me.

Lost Time

I apologize for my lack of posts in what appears to be almost two months. However, I don't feel like it's been that long. Truthfully, I don't even know what's happened in the past two months. A lot of my memories have gotten all fuzzy, ever since I watched that video I uploaded. Mainly that extra clip I found with the tree. I remember over the past two months I've had the feeling that somebody is stalking me, or somebodies, because at times I felt there was more than one person. At the same time, I'm still having dreams that are featuring the lake and the tree with the eye. The only other thing I recall is going back down to the lake to take a walk, and this random person bumped into me. It shouldn't have stuck out, except for the bandages the person had on their arms, like they were covering up scratches or burns or something.

I'm going to make a decision in the next week. I won't discuss it here just yet, but it will happen by next Sunday or Monday. However, this coming Saturday, I shall be in Atlantic City for the day. Thinking about it, I get a feeling of deja vu. Not sure why. Hopefully, my decision will be the right one.